well, it's been long... really really long. and this is just a little thing on my mind, a piece of my heart you could say. i really don't know what i would do without you. i don't wanna know what would happen in this world without you, cos i know i just wouldn't survive. ever. and even though i seem non-chalant about how i really appreciate you, i really mean it. thank you. i love all of you guys. honestly.

Vi Nie~

i have no idea where to start with you. you've been everything. everything and anything that i've needed. and you don't know just how much i regret sometimes when i'm not there just to be with you. you mean just everything to me, and there's nothing to replace you. please, please, please i ask of you, to NEVER say or even think that you're bothering me when you have a problem. because when you hurt, i hurt. when you cry, i cry. when you laugh, i laugh. and whatever that comes your way, i'll be there. no matter what. hold on to my promise. whenever you feel life isn't fair, CALL ME UP! we'll hate life together. we'll love life together, we'll LIVE life together. without you, MY life is empty. cos you are just everything to me. <3

Wesley~

my gosh. i just realised, we don't even have a proper picture of us together >.< honestly, west? without you, i probably would've died by now, literally. every year i tell you you've been my stronghold and this year i'll tell you that again. the amount of times i've cried and complaint in front of you.... it's embarrassing!! and you just listen as if you're some statue. i don't know how you do it. i don't know how you can keep your sanity, your humour, when you're friends with demanding, annoying and commanding people like me. i really appreciate it. everything you've done, from carrying my bags ( which is almost an everyday thing.. >.<) to just listening to me jabber, west. you're amazing. and if any girl who comes across you in the future and doesn't feel that way, she's an IDIOT. :)

Esther~

oh sterrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!<3 the craziness we've been through trough these 2 years in high school! :) nutso us. and really really i have no idea how you can stand the hyper crazy me when i'm feeling stupid with all my sarcasm and idioticness sometimes :P amazing what Esther Ong can withstand. Esther Ong is never wrong. she's ALWAYS right. especially when it comes to Jessica Teh. how you managed to understand my moodswings, and listen to me complain and complain all the time about prefects, piano, violin, stress. you've always been there. i hope you'll always will be. cos without you, truly truly, i'll be a wonderfully lost cause. there is no one to replace you, and i'm not afraid or ashamed to say that, ever. ever. ever. ever.

Audrey~

TWINNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <3 eheheeheeh my lovely little drey twin! our bimboness and arguements can never compare to anything else in the world. honestly if the world was about to bomb, i think one of the main causes would be our two voices fighting over little things like ryan reynolds or k-pop or something like that! i will never forget how you took care of me when i was sick last year, treating me like your little sister, your little baby is probably more correct :D hahhaahahha and how you dread my coughs and sneezes right now, when i'm sick, and currently writing this note for you :P i admire how you actually can stand me when i'm being irrational, hot-headed and in the mood. i don't know how you seem to understand what i want to say before i say it, and although your BM sucks, i truly love you, you're the most precious little thing i've come across! cause you're like me!!! MWAHAHAHAHAH! <3

Jesryna~

the uber uber hot hot hot hot hot smexaayyyy dancer who somehow winded up as my best friend. gosh you're smokin! well.... urhhh... the only picture i could find of us together which looked half decent. remember this dance? hahahhaa i don't! joy does :P but that was the first time we went shopping together>.< and and and!!! i mean to tell you this, you seem to get hotter every year... :/ honestly! no lies! you're amazing, and to stand by your philosophy to stay vegetarian, that's not easy. considering everyone around you is eating meat half of the time. it's amazing what a battle you go through everyday, and everyday you survive. i should learn survival skills from you girlie. you may look like the softie dancer, but mannnnnn you are one tough girl.<3 MUAX

Amira~

heyloo girlie! hahhahahh you seem to love hyper side of me. a side which hardly ANYONE likes to see honestly!! :P they're so used to prim and proper me, they forget i'm human. thanks for reminding me that i AM one. i love how poetic and wonderful a song writer you are, and please my dear excuse my English, cos i know you're half white and not a drop of Malay blood in you! honestly! speaking English in a Malay debate when you're Malay!!!! AMIRAAA!! :O hahhahahahahh my English here is horrible but hey, i'm MALAYSIAN!!! whatcha gonna do bout it :P we need a picture together sweetheart. it'll be awesome possums :D

Joy Ang~

hahahha you crazy little gossip queen! :D but i love you all the more for that. you're crazy, something i need a dosage of regularly in my life. ohh the secrets we shareeeeee :P hahahahahhahahaha cartoon network, boom boom boy. LOLOLOLOL. hahahhahahah we're ridiculous. thanks for accepting me as the serious one. thanks for being there when i needed the dosage of crazy joy. thanks for being you. you're amazing and you just don't know that. sometimes i even take you for granted and i'm sorry. but i love you. i really really really do. i heart you joy ang yen lynn :) (did i spell that right? O.o)

Victor~

oh lol. the only picture and it was because jia ming cropped it..>.<; hahahahhahahah well. seriously... if it weren't for you, my butt would've been skewered by numerous amounts of teacher everyday. i'm THAT hopeless of keeping track of all my work..>.< THANK YOU! my mum even once promised me that if you left for singapore, i probably would die cos of all the work i would forget with no one to remind me, let me copy or teach me >.< why are you so smarrrrttttt!!!!!!! GRRRRRR. nevermind, at least i get to be the dumb blonde friend in front of you :P thank you thank you thank you. i owe you my life already i think cos if not arhh.... i think i die bout hundred rounds kena scolding frm teacher. hahahhhahaha

nicole~

hahahhaha nickyyyy!!! although i have noo idea how i'm gonna show this to you :) well hahahahaha we've been lean, mean and mad to joy ang and we've enjoyed it! :P our little princess can't stay sheltered so long! and remember how we trick her in BM? goshhhh that's sooooo funny. you're crazy loads of fun nicky! in camp, you're the junk food supplier, dare- devil, modern dancing girl. i love youu nickyyyyy!!!!!!! and i hope you get to go for Youth camp so we can be a crazy three musketeers in more camps in the future! thanks for being with crazy me and not running away :P hahahhahahah

PICTURESSSSSS <3

p/s: to those who i have in pictures but not in words, i'm sorry. if i continued.... i would neve have ended. so the pictures can speak a thousand words on my behalf. LOVE YOU GUYS!

this is AMAZING!!! crazy, i'm blogging three times in a month!!! hahhaha :) that's new. oh wells, here goes

nothing much happened, i went for a dinner with my father's old classmates and it was SO SO BORING... ><>Chinese.. and i was blur... hahhaha crazy... worse thing is, yes i did have my father's phone which could go online... but the blogger was utterly useless... so oh wells :)

love made me, love created me, love saved me :) love is such a powerful thing. love can crush you, destroy you or even give you new purpose in life to live :) an example of love that gives you new purpose? a new family member, a new best friend or even God's love.. imagine someone whom you don't know or you hate dying for you.. wouldn't you actually wonder why? the simple answer? love.. i CANNOT imagine a love that great hahha... if you asked me to die for someone i loved i would immediately ask why and what is happening

there is so many things that i do in life people say "honestly? it's not enough.." you suddenly feel you need to push yourself more, but honestly? we're not here to please people, we're here to please God. and God says that he loves us just the way you are. it doesn't mean that we're not ever suppose to improve ourselves, it just means, that He is pleased, as long as we mean what we're doing. as the saying "it's the thought that counts" sometimes, a lot of people take that for-granted i think. we want material, tangible things until sometimes we just only want things and not realise how much we mean to that person who gave us the gift. i think thats a character that can be seen in everybody in the world some point or another... and that's not really good, because sometime we don't appreciate the person for what they've done for us, we want people who can give things. i guess even i need to learn that lesson :) because there are so many people in my life who deserve so so much better than that ;)

~the end for today then~

hahahha a year has almost passed... ALREADY :) time has been flying around me, and i guess i'm pretty okay with that. i'm so used to flying around too

these few months has been really very hard.. the ups and downs of life, and yet again every now and then i'm encouraged by people around me to get up and go... like vi nie, she's just so strong trying to get past the unfair challenges life give her... and she encourages me too, to be myself. and then esther helps me in class and makes me laugh and hits me when i'm being stupid she keeps me stuck on earth, sane :)... and also wesley... the stupid stupid person who's so easily annoyed by me and also merajuks alot everytime i say he doesn't tell me things.. wes is like a pillar that holds me in earth too.. but in a different way from esther i guess...t's really easy to tell him things... he's always listening even though he seems so quiet when you tell him things :) but he's listening.. trying to help... THANK YOU GUYS... you mean so much to me that you'll never know how much... you cost more to me than the whole world put together.. everyone of you means crazy alot to me.. so much you'll never know how much you actually mean to me.. but in so many different ways.. hahhaa end of line, you're all special in different ways, in your own ways treasure you guys so much

and then, there's been the days where i just felt wretched this year, like cramming my stupid end year papers to the last minute... i feel stupid for doing that, but i'm glad for all this... experiences, sweet and bitter life. and then sometimes i just feel like tearing all my hair out and start shouting at everyone in the world how everything is just so unfair... and then it just goes when the thing is out of my sight or thought... there are times where i feel like crying and then i tell myself" stop being stupid... you've got so many things to do, get up and stop wasting time and getting stupidly bengkak eyes"... i'll probably smile at this years down the road :).. my mood swings are crazy.. i'm like an out of control tornado :) a living one, and i love it.

honestly? tornadoes are the epitome of life :) sometimes it can carress people and give people lovely breeze... and then some days, it can be absolutely mild, hardly any danger, then it can be the most dangerous thing, killing people around it.. i guess it means the people you hurt. the breeze? the people you comfort. we humans are probably dangerous creatures i guess :) but we have a choice whether to use it well, use our words well to help, to comfort, to sooth wounds, or to destroy, to crush or to bring people down. it's so amazing, sometimes we can actually be angels sent from heaven to help, but sometimes we're like devils sent to destroy. i think something we always should keep in mind? we can stop what we do, but we can't change what is done. we can't stop the scars that are there, but we can avoid giving people scars, we can stop hurting people and we can choose to love. it is really never too late for change in life.

~the end~

life

when you live your life, you live it to the fullest. why? because once that second has passed..it's gone forever..you can't turn back time. live the most that you can in that day.. do things that pleases yourself and the people you care about. live your life to the fullest.. cherish things that come your way. friends, family..everyone that you care about.. cause you don't know when they'll slip away from you.. a friendship takes forever to build..seconds to destroy. when your friendship is on the line don't risk it.. save it.. friends are people whom will make your life njoyable. cherish them when you can. if you want to say something.. say it there and then.. cause you might not get another chance to... if you want to do something for someone do it.. cause next time you might lose your chance. friends come and go..you let them move on..but you cherish them in your hearts forever.. they are the ones who'll make the impact in your life. trust them..and they'll trust you right back:) when life tells you it's time to get moving..go..no point in arguing..because even before you were borned..you had your life mapped out for you..planned for you. you have a purpose where you are but it all comes down to the choices that you make everyday :) life is like a river..it flows on and on..and it never returns to where it comes from..but it takes you to the exact place that you were meant to be at. that's life

HOLIDAYS!!

it's been a crazay year...to the extreme crazy where i can't even find time for myself but now it's OVER!!! temporarily... for two weeks :) woo-hoo!! going to go camp on the 2nd week of holidays, swim and oh well you get the picture :) celebrated my 1st day of freedom by...doing h/w!!! sigh..just my luck and everybody elses in smkdu..PROGRAM CUTI TERANCANG is ruining our HOLIDAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it's NOT cuti TERANCANG!! it's CUTI SEKSAAN TERANCANG!!!!gosh..don't they have anything else better to do than make silly papers for us to do during our holidays!!! this people are nutzzzz.... haizs..no life people...oh well..but anyway..have to get it done because it kinda counts in our next term exam but PFFTTT who cares about exams right now :) it's HOLIDAYS!!!!!!!!!!!! gosh i'm going a little crazy i think...oh well...bb....gotta go facebook

this is a suprise! i am actually blogging....i know, it's lame, but i can hardly find the time to but since it is school holidays,i guess i'm off the hook with my tuition work=) wish every week could be like this, but then again...you know what?never mind. i'm babbling again..sigh school hols is coming to an end, which means PBSM is coming soon..i mean seriously?must i go...no time la!!!!! aiyoh die la..26-28 is what day arh? what does it matter..everyday also got tuition, have to skip some la.... man you kidding me!!!! i have to miss my theory and ballet,and church!!!! no way!!! i want to skip!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm not going to go, i hope..but then again.....okay i'm just gonna stop.. i'm just boring all of you.... all right FULLSTOP!

besties....

it's been super long since i blog...but then again..typical larh=)i want to show my appreciation to all my besties!!!!you guys put sunshine into my life all the time!!! thank you so much vi nie for everything last year, this year, every other year that we've been together too!!!!thanks so much for everything..dunno what to do without you!!! and sharon don't you ever forget this!!! i love you!!!!!and i won't ever forget you okay?? no one in DU will!! esther!! it's been a crazy year and i know how annoying it is sitting next to me!!!!so yeah!!!thanks just for being there!!! and andrea!!! thanks..for everything and for like finishing the project and well..thanks!!!=) words cannot express what i feel for you four!!! ATB5 forever!!! and to the new, amazing people i have met!!! hong yung, audrey, steffie, jia ming, joshua.....i thank God that all of you guys are here for me!!!! you people never fail to make me smile!!! and vigh!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! even if you don't read this, but happy birthday!!! and wesley!!! and sean!!! you are all stupidly great ridiculous friends!!! and cong and afzal!! ignition members!!! hahaha love all of you guys man!!! the best people i have ever met..and i think i'll ever meet!!! THANK YOU SO MUCH for everything you've done for me!!!!!